I have been struggling ever since Thanksgiving.
I had been doing so good on my no-sugar quest.
Then the Holidays hit. There was several amazing looking pies at Thanksgiving, and I figured I could get away with just two small half-slices to try them out. I immediately got an incredible buzz. Then my head started to ache and my stomach started to churn. I didn't sleep well that night.
Yikes. I will say this for super healthy eating: the worst part about it for me is that I have a hard time being able to go back and enjoy some social desserts! I wish I could enjoy a slice of chocolate every now and then without feeling sick.
So, the other bad part is that this kind of cheating usually puts me on a negative cycle that then escalates out of control, not to mention weakening my will when the next treat comes along. And they always do come along! I used to say to myself "No sugar except for special occasion!" Then I discovered that in our American Culture there was a special occasion nearly every day! That wasn't going to work!
When I eat no sugar at all for about 2 weeks, it's totally out of my system and I no longer crave it or think much about it. However, once I taste it...whether for a social occasion, or on accident, it starts an incredible craving. Then I start finding excuses to have a little bit here and a little bit there. Next thing I know, I'm sitting down to a whole plate of Christmas cookies!
That's what happened today. I had been subtly cheating on my goal more and more since those Thanksgiving pies. Today, there happened to be many kinds of Christmas cookies in my house from various activities and functions. They looked so good I couldn't resist, I had to have a "little" of everything. Now I'm sick and tired. A nasty headache behind my right eye, ear, and then to the back of my head. Why do I do this to myself?!?
I guess I really have to face up to the truth: my body and sugar do not get along. I know lots of people who can enjoy their desserts without these consequences, but I am just not one of them. I have to choose between my health and my treats, and it is not a happy one for me. I'd much rather enjoy some goodies throughout the Christmas season!
I'm trying to get my strength of will back (where did it go?!?) to go back to no sugar. It's all or nothing, I guess. It's a mournful situation for me because so many family traditions are tied to food and it is so heart breaking to even try and change them. But I can't afford to be sick, so what's a girl to do? I can't have my cake and eat it too! (Haha, pun intended!)